When Does School Start?????

School started for the girls Wednesday, and what and exciting day!  Little V is now officially a Kindergartener and could not wait to get rid of me.  "Can you not walk me to class?  J can do it."  (she adjusted quickly).  J is ready for 3rd grade, albeit a bit apprehensive of the social networking situation in class.  I am excited to finally get some of my SAHMing goals completed!

Fast forward to Thursday.

The house is a disaster!  It's messier when the girls are NOT home.  They don't even pretend to clean.  All that time I thought I was going to have is non-existent.  Between shopping, appointments, and errands, I was home the sum of 2 hours before the girls came home from school.  That was enough time to eat, shower, and catch up on my correspondence.

I know I know - it's only the first day.  I have not yet adjusted to the lack of hard deadlines and work at your own pace environment that SAHMing offers as a benefit.  It is a double edged sword however.  I can't get everything done on the first day, but I worry that I will become complacent or overwhelmed with the daily routine and completely lose sight of all of the goals and life work I want to accomplish while I stay home.  Sure - I have lists and timelines and goals, but what is going to motivate me to do that as opposed to sit in front of my computer with my second cup of coffee and toaster strudel (finally itched that scratch) and aimlessly surf the internet? 

The answer is nothing; for the first time, I am going to have to motivate myself.  No school, no club, no job, and the implied authority, is there to nudge or force that action.  I will have to do this myself.  Can I be my own boss?  Maybe.